Saturday, June 5, 2010

AUDIENCE, AGAIN

I'm writing in a bubble -- audience-free and (mostly) loving it.

Who needs an audience? An audience inevitably changes me and my writing. I cannot resist the urge to amuse. Yet when my readers aren't amused, or don't "get" me, I'm indignant. I can't help but wonder what's wrong with everyone.

Or, worse yet, what's wrong with me.

I want to please people -- I love to please people -- but I'm at a point where I only want to do it by being myself. Does that make me a genius or fool?

Did I start a blog in the hopes of finding an audience? What was I hoping for?

I wanted to practice writing clear and succinct prose and to develop a daily(ish) writing habit. 

Lately, I've made a conscious effort not to read much about writing. In many ways I'm cocooning myself from what I would typically do: getting bogged down in the shoulds and should nots of "the writing life." When I start reading about writing, I stop writing.

Self-criticism has been a massive roadblock. I'm maybe almost ready to wish I had written thousands of pages of crap instead of a few lovely turns of phrase.

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