It's hard to be a good _______ (fill in the blank) when you feel more like the blank than the fill-in.
I've long resisted defining myself, always vague about what I wanted to "be," what I wanted to "do." It was easy to want to be a "writer." The title is so vast and amorphous it's practically meaningless.
"Writer" is an easy title to hide behind.
I have a very close friend who is blindingly sure of himself. He knows exactly who he is, remains (at all times) certain of what he must accomplish, and never loses sight of how to get precisely where he wants to be. Woe to anyone standing in his way!
I can't even imagine how to be such a person.
However, I am curious.
A technique for dealing with depression is to behave as a non-depressed person would. Although you feel miserable, you go about your day behaving as though everything is just peachy. You become an actor who plays a character nothing like yourself.
I want to play the part of a person "being a good _________."
I would love to be a really good ________.
But first I need to play another role: Person Who Fills in the Blank.
